Hello blogging world. I've missed you. And I think I blame part of my recent inner turmoil on not visiting you in a while. Two months since my last post. While much has stayed the same, much has happened. Many details won't make it here, but I need to get back to the catharsis blogging can give me.
Professionally, I am now well into my second year, which presents new comforts and new challenges. I finally feel like I have found a place in my position. Making changes, setting goals, moving forward. Yet I also find the growing pains. Some pent-up frustrations and fears of looking to the future. October especially seemed to be a rough month. The major positive is I have some great mentors and support that I hope will help carry me through. I also know my convictions to continue doing the best I can.
Personally, the balance of good and bad is similar. Perhaps the most interesting, and certainly most recent detail is my decision to not go home for Thanksgiving for the first time ever. While I am sad I will not be home, telling people about my decision reminded me of what awesome people I have in my life. My family, for the most part, is more than supportive, and my friends of course have more than reached out to me to make sure I am okay for the holiday. For the record, things are good, and I look forward to a two week visit home for Christmas.
I have also had the chance to catch up with some people this week, which has certainly helped. Some I had not seen in months, one I had not seen in years. Coming back together over career changes, music, and just life in general, I realize how lucky I am to have them all.
So I feel like I am in something of a funk right now, but I am looking to see the positives around me. I must also remind myself that if I did not adapt I would not be where I am. Everything happens for a reason. Every moment is a moment to learn. Personal struggles make us who we are.
Sidenote: Thanks to Allison, a mentor and coworker, for reintroducing me to Barbara Kingsolver. Great author.
